Vivid Invisibility

God Knows Best

2011-05-30T23:23:00.000+08:00

That's enough of dodging I've done now. So many weeks of avoiding a conversation with Him.
I guess I just took Him for granted, promised Him so many times. Well no more empty promises, I;m gonna step it up and get over that lava.

I'm coming back to the Heart of Worship.

Till the World Ends.

2011-05-25T23:25:00.000+08:00

This is just a title of Britney's song XD
For those under the "tempurung", the supposed doomsday, May 21 2011, came and went without incident -_-

Somehow I just wish people stop trying to predict God. You gotta be someone greater to predict Him! which is completely impossible =)

I guess now people will start preparing for Dec 21 2012 -_-
Warning though, PLEASE DO YOUR CHRISTMAS SHOPPING! lol, don't take a silly date for granted -_-

The funny thing is...

2011-05-19T23:19:00.000+08:00

Today I had an absolutely fruitful day. Though very drained and tired, I see God answering prayer by prayer. I;m really thankful for it :)

At CG we've talked about so many issues that was brought to light. But the one discussion that struck me was learning to accept a bad Christian. So many people in the world giving Christians a bad name but nevertheless, God loves them the same. We might be not in total communion with the Protestants. They might call us pagans, non-Christians, weirdos whatever. But they are God's creation and they are created the same way we were, in the very likeness of the creator. Some Catholics are absolutely despicable (I know many), but who are we to look down on them? we are on the same level as them, no matter how holy we are, how horrible they can be.

I guess that's the wonder of God. Everyone's no different. we're just as much as a sinner as everyone else. But perhaps what distinguishes us is the belief we have in terms of our level with God. We will think we are the better people or they will think we totally suck. But where's the difference in our image? We're created in the same way (that goes for people like Adolf Hitler, Osama bin Laden, Emperor Nero, George W Bush ect)

"Roomcoming"

2011-05-16T15:00:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow, I'll be going back to my small room I've endured with another 2 roommates for 10 months at college -_-

yes I'm skipping practice tonight, I'll be dead next week for not knowing the song XD but well, I don't get ~~air-cond~~ to relax much so ah nevermind lah (:

For now I will just endure the limited comforts of my room. Mum wants me to stay in the hostel for the first year then decide if I still need to shift out ~~Man I hope I can.~~

To all aspiring hosteliers, beware of the snares of money making unis when you stay at in-campus hostels O_O

Revival Town

2011-05-16T02:15:00.002+08:00

The obvious title also happens to refer to my life (besides the blog XD)
okay, so let's start over. my name is Lianne and this is like my personal blog of thoughts. You are welcomed to invade them, overthrow them, and create a new regime which I will most possibly rebel against (MUAHAHAHAHA) okay you have been warned =P

This time, I would like to introduce to you a list of names I have thought of for my children, which, in the future, I would love to have many of them :) so, skip this post if you want, its my personal thought after all =D

6 girls, 6 boys. Lets begin with the boys:

Naveen Paulus 博伟 (I really like the name Paulus, and Maxwell has MAX in it, nuff said :) )
Henrie Lucas 恒尊 (Henrie from David Henrie, 尊 from 吴尊)
Joseph Silas 宗胜 (Joseph; My grandfather; Silas, from the Bible)
Dominic Flynn 德聪 (Dominic from St. Dominic Savio; Flynn, favourite hero from Tangled)
Aloysius Louis 黎修 (Aloysius from St. Aloysius Gonzaga)
Matthias Devon 周泰 (Matthias from the Bible)

and then with the girls:

Marian Esmae 眧阳 (Marian for my grandma, Esmae for my bestie Esmond, and 眧阳 from my favourite tv character)
Victoria Yves 泉希 (Victoria in honour of the name my grandma wanted for me, and 泉希 combo of 以泉 + 瑞希)
Carmen Navaeh 诗桦 (诗桦 combo of 诗曼 + 嘉桦)
Franchette Zita 善琴 (Franchette for my friend Francisco)
Tabitha Loren 梅欣 (Tabitha for my late friend, 梅+欣 combo of my two friends' name)
Jordine Ella 恩惠 (Ella for my dear auntie, and 恩惠 from Yoon Eun-Hye)

*Navaeh is Heaven spelt backwards, kinda sounds not bad to me :)

I did major changes, the names listed today was not the same as the ones I thought of yesterday, I change my mind like I change clothes =/

A MUST READ for any uni students of any level :)

2010-10-07T23:14:00.000+08:00

Simply ingenious, is all I have to say about this man.

P.S He works at the Uni next to my uni XD

An open letter to Mustapa

from the star: link (http://www.thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2006/3/11/focus/13632347&sec=focus)

Dear Sir,

Firstly, allow me to congratulate you on your new posting. It must be said though that you are not to be envied, for you are now faced with a Herculean task.

But, where are my manners? You have no idea who I am. I could be a complete nutcase.

Well, I’m an academic in a Malaysian public university. Which some people might consider a nutcase, anyway. But I’m very proud to be an academic.

It’s a noble profession, and it matters not that my students earn more than me within a few years of graduating and that little children run screaming from my hideously outdated clothes. It’s a calling to be an academic, and I care passionately about it.

That is why I’m writing to you. You see, there is much that is wrong with our universities and much that can be done by the Ministry to put things right.

You may not believe that my one purpose in writing to you is the improvement of our institutions, but let me assure you, we true academics (as opposed to wannabe politicians in lecturers’ clothes) don’t have hidden agendas.

Over the past few years, there has been this mantra chanted by the Government and university leaders: “We want our universities to be world-class universities.” Unfortunately, this mantra does not have any explanatory notes, so we don’t really know what “world-class” means. However, let us assume that a world-class university has the following:

# Graduates who are employable, not only here but also abroad;

# Academic staff who are respected worldwide;

# Research and publications that are recognised by reputable international journals/publishers;

# An academic programme that is recognised worldwide;

# An academic atmosphere that can attract quality national and foreign students and staff.

If we accept these criteria as valid, what then can be done to achieve it?

Universities are not hampers

Universities are not rewards to be handed out. It has happened in Terengganu and the same has been promised to Kelantan. “Vote for us and we will give you a university.”

This may make political sense, but it does not make any academic sense. A lot of planning is needed to ensure that the resources are sufficient to create a university of quality.

Malaysia is not a very rich country – we can’t afford petrol subsidies, for goodness’ sake – and we definitely can’t afford to stretch our limited economic and intellectual resources to build universities in such a blasé manner.

Universities are not fast-food joints

They should instead be high-class restaurants. Universities have to be elitist in order to produce quality research and graduates.

An elitist university means that only the best candidates are taken in as students and only the best staff are hired. Classes and exams can then be pitched at a higher standard.

Furthermore, the resulting smaller student numbers mean seminars and tutorials can be truly conducive to discussions, and lecturers will have less of a teaching burden in order to concentrate on research.

This is not to say that higher education as a whole must be elitist. There are other forms of higher education institutions that can cater to school leavers who don’t make the cut, such as polytechnics and community colleges.

If you love your universities, you must set them free

Academics and students must be free to think and to express themselves.

Yes, I understand that this is Malaysia and freedom is seen as a dirty word by some, but without it, there is little hope of achieving “world-class” universities.

Intellectualism cannot grow in a repressive atmosphere.

We all know that in this country, there are many laws that restrict our freedom to express ourselves, but the irony is that for lecturers and students there are additional laws levelled at them.

You must be aware of the University and University Colleges Act – that wonderful piece of legislation designed to ensure that university students are little more than secondary school pupils.

You may not be aware, however, of the Statutory Bodies Discipline and Surcharge Act which affects academics who are the employees of statutory bodies.

According to this law, we can’t say anything for or against government policy without getting ministerial permission first.

Now, this may be all right for a mathematician quietly thinking up new formulae with which to calculate the possibility of Malaysia ever qualifying for the World Cup.

But for social scientists, it is akin to having the Malaysian football team play football without using their feet (which is perhaps something that they do anyway, looking at previous results).

The simple fact of the matter is that universities should first and foremost be the birthplace of ideas and original thought, discussion and debate, and this can’t be achieved with such laws hung around our necks.

And in case you’re worried that greater freedom will make our campuses hotbeds of radicalism, please let me put your fears to rest.

The number of students in this day and age who really care about matters beyond Akademi Fantasia is very small indeed.

Most students just want to graduate and as quickly as possible get into debt to pay for their three-bedroom flat and Proton Waja.

Universities need Mandelas

If there is one thing that Malaysian universities need, it is good leadership. And by a good leader, I mean a Vice-Chancellor who has the qualities of an outstanding intellectual, manager and diplomat, who can ensure that academic principles are paramount, not political expediency.

That promotions are given based on merit, not patronage. That students are treated like adults, not children. And finally, that the university is run on the highest ideals of civilisation and intellectualism, not self-aggrandisement and base toadying.

An outstanding academic leader, someone who can efficiently organise the place, represent the institution with dignity and command the respect of those working under him, or her, is a rare creature indeed.

To seek out such a person, may I suggest that the search committee your predecessor was talking about be made a reality.

This search committee, however, must be independent and transparent. It must not be hiHndered by any political agenda and must instead pick the candidates based on ability – and ability alone. Factors such as race, creed, gender and nationality should not be a consideration.

Perhaps we’d like to take lessons from elsewhere. Oh, before you think I’m suggesting a “study trip” abroad (with the usual sightseeing and cultural diversions), let me make it clear that I think the taxpayers’ money need not be wasted in such a fashion. After all, writing an e-mail is probably all you need to do to get the necessary information.

You may wish to start with New Zealand universities. I say New Zealand because the VC of Auckland University was recently poached by Oxford to be its Vice-Chancellor. The first non-English VC of Oxford since, well, since forever.

Now, that’s world-class, don’t you think? And from a country much smaller than us where the sheep outnumber the humans. Amazing.Well then, Sir, I think I’d best sign off now. You must have loads to do. Oh, before I forget, if you want to lighten the workload of your officers, may I make a last suggestion?

Why don’t you just leave the day-to-day running of the universities in the hands of the universities? I bet the Ministry has enough on its plate without having to decide about trivial things like professorial promotions and the approving of leave for academics to go to conferences and holidays overseas.

Anyway, thanks for taking the time to read my letter. Good luck with your endeavours. Until next time, I remain,

Yours sincerely,

AZMI SHAROM

# Dr Azmi Sharom is an associate professor of the Law Faculty of Universiti Malaya

Ditched?!

2010-09-17T13:53:00.002+08:00

Have you had that feeling when you go away for some time, then when you come back again, you become a stranger to the people who you thought you knew so well?

Maybe you have too committed a group a friends and they will never do that to you, KUDOS I say but I, along with other millions of people have become the unlucky ones here.

For some reason distance does pose a problem. When you're away from a group of friends due to studies, work etc, life will definitely go on, but without you. Thus sparks new private jokes, new hangouts, gossip... Stuff that you don't have the slightest idea about.

They could update you, but it's just not the same, everytime you come back from that distant place, they'll be laughing about something you totally don't know about. You'll be the odd one out with that funny "huh?" look on your face.

Sometimes it's also because you don't have something that they have that creates the exclusion ( like in my case ) . It sort of the "you don't understand" syndrome. Because I don't have something or someone, I don't know what it feels like. So when they share something, I can't share anything because " I don't know how is it like to *blah* and *blah* "

So my dear friends, when someone comes back from somewhere after sometime, please give him or her a warm welcome. It's not the place that they miss, and they don't come back because they miss the food and whatnot, they love and care enough for their friends to come back and spend time.

How I wish they could see me now, they have no idea how much I miss them. They're having something tonight and I wasn't in the list. Ditched.

10 reasons why geeks make the best boyfriend

2010-09-11T16:54:00.001+08:00

I found this post fascinating as they appeal to me sheer honesty in all aspects (~~because I'm currently in love with a geek~~) XD So just just like to share it with you guys.

lol.. I read this post onTechFreakStuff.com and I like it Most girls hate dating with geeks because often they are not romantic, they don’t care with their appearances, etc. The post is a good post to counter-attack those false “accusations”. Again, I didn’t write this but a fellow blogger, Rohit, at TechFreakStuff.com. All credits should go to him Have a great weekend, everyone!

10 Reasons why you should have a geek as your boyfriend

They are so busy with their Computers that they don’t have all the time in the world to think about other girls. Thus, they won’t ditch you for any other girl. So, you don’t need to be unsecured.
They are technically sound! In this age of technology, they can work with any given gadget. So, if you happen to mess up with a gizmo, they can fix it for you with ease. So, No wasting money on repairing gadgets.
They are intelligent and they know what they are talking about. So, you don’t need to act as if you are convinced, when you are actually not! They can explain everything what they are talking about[mostly with solid proofs]. They can impress your parents or any other knowledgeable person with their wisdom and knowledge, not like any other Sexy looking loser.
In this Computer-based world, Geeks are greatly in demand for Jobs. So, they earn quite well or are bound to make good money in the future. So, No future worries!
You don’t need to wear good clothes and have a facial done every 2 weeks. They don’t really care about how you look, as far as they are sure that you love them. Some of them may talk about your looks, but it is not really in their nature.
They will give you a gift which you can show-off to the world. Mostly, the gifts would be like the latest Apple iPod or the newest Mobile phone in the market. It may also be a lovely website with the photos of you and him linking to geeky poems which will be difficult for you to understand.(but that’s okay!). You don’t need to hide their gifts from everyone as they are not going to be Sexy looking “Undies”.
If he goes missing, you don’t need worry about Police arresting him for misbehavior, after boozing on the streets! You can find him in some electronic Superstore geeking around with the latest MacBook.
They don’t really have any dressing sense. So, you can always try and convince him on which clothes to buy. You surely have the upper hand when it comes to knowing about the latest fashion trends. And, they will obey your command quietly without asking to many questions, when it comes to the Fashion part.
They are loyal to you as they are to their Laptop! When they say that they need you more than the RAM in their Desktop, they really mean that they love you and need you for their life!
Even though their sense of romance is quite different, let me tell you…They are really good in Bed! (you need to accept this without any logical proof!)

My new "drug"

2010-08-15T22:25:00.001+08:00

Luke and Rebecca

Wha hey hey, I'm obsessed with a NEW FICTITIOUS guy, Its Luke Brandon! from the Shopaholic series :D . in the book he is the 31st richest bachelor (thank you very much, i know I have taste XD) and he heads Brandon Communications.... He's perfect, but... he's not real TT

NNOOOOOOOOOOOO!

~~it was fun while it lasted~~

Luke's still awesomely hawt though, when i have the money, I want to buy the whole shopaholic series XD

Luke Luke Luke Luke Luke Luke Luke Luke Luke Luke!

Yellow.......!

2010-06-29T03:22:00.002+08:00

After a long silence ~~and recuperating betrayal to Blogger~~, I've decided to post something new (YAY!)
I have a loooooooong list of updates, but here's a big announcement:

I like somebody! =D

Not as in David Archuleta or Taylor Lautner but a REAL GUY! Bet you didn't see that one coming XD

I attended an awesome Youth Leadership Conference last month. And it was life-changing. I finally realised why was I put on this long-suffering earth, and I'm as joyful as ever. It may be only 1 week but I have a ~~almost~~ completely new perspective to life. I'm now up and ready to spread my love! Nah I'm just kidding. XD I want to be a good influence to the people who are hoping in me, most of all, I want to let people know that I care :) very, very much.

I've gained so many friends at one time during the conference. Imagine, 450 people=one big family, ain't that awesome? and we've so many things we can share, and there's no fear talking and praising God amongst each other. Now that's a bed of roses =)

Recently, around 1 and a half weeks after the conference, our kecoh Johorian friends came over. But he didn't come T_T. We had so much fun together! And the Kluangians (Paul, Simon, exc. Pierre and Mag) stayed over. We had an awesomely kecoh time at San Pedro's and we rocked the house =P Then back at home, all four of us (Pierre went back early :( ) had a heart2heart session, It feels so good when you have someone to share about the same problems, just when you think you're facing it alone =)

So when will be our turn to go to Johor? Stay tuned XD

You just don't get it

2010-04-15T20:58:00.000+08:00

Hate it when they say there are plenty more fish in the sea.. I mean honestly, who wants a fish, they are all cold and slimy..

Sometimes it occurs to me how fickle-minded people can be. I mean, yeah, most of the time we have needs, needs that we alone have to fulfill. But yet, it comes to a time when you are so annoyed by that one person that doesn't respect that, it just collapses.

I wish that it wouldn't happen, who wants it to happen anyway? It kills, I know. Sometimes the people you hope on the most let you down. Sure, people tell you to move on, but do you think you can let this go without feeling heartbroken? Exactly.

Moving on, its something better said than done, while it kills me to do it, and I know I'll be hurting the opposite party, somehow, it becomes the right thing to do. Because we're better off without each other.

How can I ever say it?

2010-01-30T23:18:00.000+08:00

There it is.

Your whole life flashing before your eyes, and all you see are the bad times.

For some reason nobody shows you the good side of life. You would not remember how many times you laughed, but you WILL remember the last time you cried.

People are naturally pessimistic, people remember the bad times rather than the abundance. Even when you know a person, you'll remember how narcissistic and dramatic she is, but can you remember the time she hugged you long and tight during your first break up? Seldom.

I see life flashing before my eyes. Not just mine, but anybody in it. Most of the time I see all the tears and fights, all the misunderstanding and complications. But out of my misty memory, I suddenly realised I see a second set of hands on my teary face, trying to wipe it clean. Maybe it's pretty pessimistic for me to have my life flash before me, but I do know where my guiding force comes from. I'd like to think that the second set of hands will be on my face forever, trying to wipe it clean of all the humiliation and exhaustion. But let's face it, God isn't going to let somebody work overtime for Him. Though we just have to be content, but we need reminding when we feel like it's over:

She's not going to let us off so easily, or here comes her "LOSER" fan across your face

SMACK and it hits you

2009-11-05T20:23:00.000+08:00

Living for 17 years... Can you imagine how much 17-year-olds have gone through? ~~and they say we're immature~~ That's 6210 days for you. So many friendships, heartbreak, disputes and yet we made it to this day (:

I'm sure you guys read about that dude who was aiming to be an accountant, but he died in a waterfall accident. (for those kataks out there, please read the newspaper XD ~~for once~~) it's so wasted to see his life end that way, "mati katak" as some of you might say.

It makes you its sort of more appreciative. His life was so full of ambitions, he was unable to be saved. however God has His reasons (or so i hope...) my mum told me this story that made me think again about why everything happens for a reason (copied from my mum's email XD):

A beautiful story.... makes you understand that things happen for a reason

T he new priest, newly assigned
to their first ministry, to reopen a church
in suburban Brooklyn , arrived in early October
excited about their opportunities When he saw
the church, it was very run down and needed
much work. He set a goal to have everything
done in time to have their first service
on Christmas Eve.

He worked hard, repairing pews, plastering walls,
painting, etc, and on December 18
were ahead of schedule and just about finished.
O n December 19 a terrible tempest - a driving
rainstorm hit the area and lasted for two days.
O n the 21st, the priest went over to the church.
His heart sank when he saw that the roof had
leaked, causing a large area of plaster about
20 feet by 8 feet to fall off the front wall of the
sanctuary just behind the pulpit, beginning about
head high.
T he priest cleaned up the mess on the floor,
and not knowing what else to do but postpone
the Christmas Eve service, headed home.

On the way he noticed that a local business was
having a flea market type sale for charity so he
stopped in. One of the items was a beautiful,
handmade, ivory colored, crocheted tablecloth
with exquisite work, fine colors and a Cross
embroidered right in the center. It was just
the right size to cover up the hole in the front
wall. He bought it and headed back to the church.

B y this time it had started to snow. An older
woman running from the opposite direction was
trying to catch the bus.. She missed it. The priest
invited her to wait in the warm church for
the next bus 45 minutes later.

She sat in a pew and paid no attention to the priest
while he got a ladder, hangers, etc., to put
up the tablecloth as a wall tapestry. The priest
could hardly believe how beautiful it looked and
it covered up the entire problem area.

T hen he noticed the woman walking down the center
aisle. Her face was like a sheet.. 'Father,'
she asked, 'where did you get that tablecloth?'
The priest explained. The woman asked him to check
the lower right corner to see if the initials, EBG were crocheted into
it there. They were. These were the initials of the woman, and she had
made this tablecloth 35 years before, in Austria

T he woman could hardly believe it as the priest
told how he had just gotten the Tablecloth. The
woman explained that before the war she and
her husband were well-to-do people in Austria

When the Nazis came, she was forced to leave.
Her husband was going to follow her the next week..
He was captured, sent to prison and never saw her
husband or her home again.

T he priest wanted to give her the tablecloth;
but she made the priest keep it for the church.
The priest insisted on driving her home, that
was the least he could do.. She lived on the other
side of Staten Island and was only in Brooklyn
for the day for a housecleaning job.

W hat a wonderful service they had on Christmas
Eve. The church was almost full. The music and the
spirit were great. At the end of the service, the
priest greeted everyone at the door
and many said that they would return.

One older man, whom the priest recognized
from the neighborhood continued to sit in one of the
pews and stare, and the priest wondered why he
wasn't leaving.

The man asked him where he got the tablecloth on
the front wall because it was identical to one
that his wife had made years ago when
they lived in Austria before the war and how
could there be two tablecloths so much alike.

H e told the priest how the Nazis came, how he
forced his wife to flee for her safety and he was
supposed to follow her, but he was arrested and
put in a prison.. He never saw his wife or his home
again all the 35 years in between.

T he priest asked him if he would allow him to
take him for a little ride. They drove to Staten
Island and to the same house where the priest
had taken the woman three days earlier.

H e helped the man climb the three flights of
stairs to the woman's apartment, knocked on
the door and he saw the greatest Christmas
reunion he could ever imagine.

Trust God that he works out everything for a reason. Maybe we don't know whether the good or bad will happen, but whatever happens, it will be the best of a life we can ever have in the end.

To my friends, no matter what happens, I wish you luck, when we're separated, God will bring us back together again (:

Rural thoughts

2009-10-19T22:11:00.000+08:00

I had a strange thought... I have these strange urges to go and get posted to rural areas when I've done my medical course O.O. I don't really mind being single for my life. ~~Gonna have to learn to live with it for my whole life.~~ Hmmm, don't know where that urge came from, but for one thing I do know, my mum will rather let me do an accounting (for goodness sakes) rather than let me go there.

Am I being too demanding? I wouldn't know. But before I uproot my parents and bring them out, I would to fulfill this dream first ^^. Then I can live in Malaysia with my concience intact. Which brings me to the next question: ~~How am I suppose to start a family?~~ What will I do then?

Face it, life's baffling s:

Like it or not

2009-10-17T23:02:00.000+08:00

Sometimes it feels as if it's worthless doing what we do. We're all gonna die anyway, nothing's forever on earth. It really funny when I see people so worked up over what promotions, money... Sure we need to survive but what happens in the end when God doesn't judge people according to rank and money?

~~Okay, enough weird stuff for a day, let's get down to the interesting details (:~~

I won't say anything about studies, I know many people won't like that. ~~I have got nothing to say about my nonexistent lovelife either~~. OH! I've finished my first assignment for travel journalism. 30 pages... hopefully the paycheck comes in the 30-fold, lol..

Ok, so far, i'm being intimidated. Almost every person I ask, "what's your ambition?", they answer "Doctor"

Doctor here, doctor there, medicine in Malaysia, medicine elsewhere.... O_O I'm doomed.

I'm not complaining, it's not that we don't need more doctors around... I'm just so damn frustrated by the fact that everybody wants to either work in private or go overseas. What happen to the once noble profession of a doctor? What happened to making "Saving People's Lives" as our primary goal.

Okay, first of all, I'm not condemning the doctors doing private practice. It's just that some people's mindsets are "Ooh, doctor, earn a lot of money..." Come on! you are SAVING LIVES, nthe main point is not making money. being a banker would be a better job =.=

I appreciate the efforts of many doctors whose primary goal IS saving lives. But I think the world would be a much better place without those self-centered, money-minded, pig-headed doctors.

Your welcome.

Heartbreak Kid

2009-10-01T22:55:00.000+08:00

Trials' Results DX

BM-73
BI-91
BC- :s
Mod Maths- 66 (DISAPPOINTING!)
Add Maths- :s
Bio- :s
Phy- ??
Chem-71 (:
Sej-75
Bible Knowledge- 52 :s I dunno wat happened

:s = at the brink of failing...

I love the medical field, but I just can't seem to do well in Bio....

What in the world am I supposed to do???

~~I cried~~ I tried to study harder.... Hmmm, any suggestions?

Yesterday during Add Maths tuition (around 6 something) The whole class panicked as the earth shook s:

Thank GOD that it was only a tremor... But then again if the earth opened and swallowed me up, I wouldn't mind >.<

Oh yeah! There's a football match tonight.. Wolfsburg vs Man Utd :D

~~No need to watch la~~, i know who will win XD

I seriously need 2 study now... s:

Adios :P

Oh so random

2009-09-25T22:39:00.001+08:00

Whoa, I can't believe I haven't been in here for so long (apparently procrastination runs rampant with blogging too :s) Anyway, its the end of the Raya holidays, and though I'm proud of myself for holding back on Lemang >.<, I think I regretted not having just one scoop or Rendang ):

I'm not so proud on procrastinating with my studies though, lol. The whole I just slept nad slept (actually don't we all do?) I even had nightmares about school :s, aometimes woke up sweating.... Whoever said education didn't hurt must've been a genius.

My friend's got me obsessed with this dance track. Its sort of my lullaby before I sleep (yeah, no typo, DANCE TRACK) Its sorta silly huh :P but its helps in sleeping, or it could be the reason behind that sinister migraine DX

Oh, by the way, I got a job!!! :D you're looking at writings of a travel journalist! (I know, long way to go with the style of writing). Hehe, but it's a PAID job, and I love writing, what could be better than that?

And, I think I just found the solution to break a family curse XP

In case you don't know, none of the girls in my family are married, and I'm the only female descendant.

Hatin on the club

2009-08-18T22:30:00.002+08:00

I have a new crush!!!!
=D

Ain't that swell? and I'm over that no-do-gooder, muahahaha!
Anyway been feeling a lil lazy to type it out, what more studying (haiz)
I won't be back till the end of trials, or maybe (just maybe), until the end of SPM

If I'm lucky....
(Gosh I hope he likes me...=D)

You can wonder why I'm so happy-go-lucky, but on the contrary...

2009-08-12T23:54:00.003+08:00

I did something really salah suai 2day and so I googled my surname

Ohmigosh

Solicitors, housing developers, and anybody with the surname "Hendriks" came up everywhere!

The point of googling my surname is to look for any connections to my family here in Malaysia. But of course, I had to give up as the clan was too large to search one by one (those olden days people can really reproduce huh XD)

Really salah suai...S: But it was a move i didn't regret... (:

Oh, haha, right, I just remembered my birthday was on 7th August... Ah yes... I am 17, but the supposedly special day was as ordinary as a cat-mouse chase... It was alright, but I was in NO MOOD to celebrate. (to those who are interested, kindly view my Living Socials page on Facebook, check on my list of "5 thing I want for my birthday" and you'll see what's repeated twice...)

You can wonder why I'm so happy-go-lucky, but on the contrary... You don't see how long I spend each night ....... with wet eyes...
It's back. the emoness...

Ah, my friend, nothing is ever perfect in this world...
But is it worth it when nobody offers to do anything for birthdays?
Apparently, nobody really cares.
Because, you're talking about Lianne's birthday, who the heck cares?

"what, you have a birthday?"
"yes, I do"
"gee, cause you are better off dead"
"oh wow, I thought about the exact same thing"

End.

Evacuate the dancefloor!

2009-07-30T01:06:00.002+08:00

I'm obsessed with that new Cascada song. So addictive 8D

These recent few days seem to me like one of those "kodak moments". Everybody has been in their "best" behaviour (lol).

This sounds extremely narcissistic but I LOVE MYSELF! =D I was scrollingthrough old emails just because I was too free and I found this awesome Handbook for 2009. I think it's suitable for any year though. Thanks Andre for sending it to me! Here's the lifesaver...

Subject: FW: HANDBOOK 2009
a handbook for each and every year indeed !

Health:

1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer.
6. Play more games.
7. Read more books than you did in 2008.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:

11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Society:

25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

Last but not the least:

40. Please Forward this to everyone you care about

The "handbook" is on display on my desk and I think I highlighted almost verything, except for 31 I think. Enjoy! I know you will....XD

Nightmare....

2009-07-27T17:23:00.002+08:00

I had a nightmare last night..

I don't know why but I ended up in the forest on a stormy day with all my friends. I was stuck in a quicksand and I was sinking, FAST. I was the only one stuck in it and I was crying and waving my hands to reach out to them. The most surprising thing was everyone just folded their arms and glared at me. I have never been so afraid in a dream. When I asked why they wouldn't come and save me, they said,

"Its your fault you'd end up like this, a fitting end for you."

I wish it'll never EVER come true..

When it all falls apart, sleep

2009-07-25T14:24:00.003+08:00

..which is exactly what I've been doing this few days. The week's been pretty miserable. Tests and all.. However the main week-wrecker came as a surprise. I can't go for AFS, even though I'm selected among millions of hopefuls. I don't have the cash, nor the time to type a teacher recommendation letter, mind you, that wasn't a typo, i REALLY had to type a recommendation letter which was supposed to be from teacher. the worst part is, I had 2 raise RM 3,000 in 3 days. Which family with parents working as government servants have that kind of money?! My parents wanted me to go, they were even ready to withdraw money from my poor brother's ASB savings account, but what the heck, he'll never ever forgive me, besides, I still have to pay another RM 7,000 if I wanted to go.

A typical Malaysian scenario:

Letter from AFS dated 7th July 2009, but the chop on the stamp said 15 July 2009, the letter reached my doorstep on 17 July 2009, the closing date for 2nd application form to be handed up-27th July 2009 (20-22 July is monthly tests) Oh did I mention? the form is 12 pages, and you have to prepare 3 letters-parents', candidates' and teachers', not to mention do a full-medical checkup, which the procedure will take at least a week.

But the good thing was the installment of the upcoming band committee. Putting them in where they are today doesn't mean there'll be no conflicts, but I trust they'll be doing their best :)

There's something else too, this one is more school-based, (and no, its not about the test or the magazine) But I do sincerely hope it'll end, because I know that well, somebody or rather "somebodies" dislike the way I am. Can't say I didn't try, cuz I have been working extra hard these few weeks but, oh well, is that's the way it has to be...

All I have to say is:

Sorry, I'm not gonna change for anyone, I'll continue to be myself and socialise with whoever I want (including you) because I love all my friends (you included) and I love me. If I like the way I am, rest assured I would not change for anyone just to please them. This is the real me, take it or leave it. I can accept and forgive you, whoever or whatever you might be, but if I don't suit your criteria, too bad.

You've got a problem? Join the club

2009-07-07T22:59:00.003+08:00

She really annoys me cuz she goes around saying "I hate you" to people who are nice 2 her. Doesn't she know that you'll never know what you've got till someone's gone? 1 thing I bet is that when I die nobody will come to the funeral except my family, even the band wouldn't play 4 me. If I had 2 die in school, i probably wouldn't be discovered until SPM time.
Yeah I'm emo, sorry 2 say but my mood's been filthily rotten these few days... I need a bear hug :( I need motivation...

Don't stay away from me, it only makes me feel worse. This is the time when I need you the most...

Gyaaahhhh! I hate to be me. It makes no difference if I'm dumb (bisu) or not, nobody really hears...

And btw, I have a backup plan. In case i fail to comfort myself, i have a very simple solution.

kill myself by listening to Hey Jude over and over and over again...

Hey, at least you have friends who love you no matter what state ur in (liquidkah, gaskah...lolz) , so why complain? I don't.

Kicking myself in the head is fun!

2009-06-27T19:54:00.002+08:00

Okay, that really got ur attention didn't it? Oh wait, stupid me, nobody reads my blog posts T.T Anyway, I went to the cinema 2day, missed half of Transformers 2, haiz... But Shia Labeouf is SO HOT! Screw Megan Fox for being his onscreen gf, hopefully they don't end up like Dev Patel and Freida Pinto *touch wood*.

I don't feel it, you know? the love vibe. It just ain't there, am I not trying hard enough? Or did I try too hard? She still is very indifferent to me. But don't care la, I just wanna leave MLK and migrate somewhere else. too many bad memories 4 me... I finally understood why people say that IJC girls sombong... Life isnt' perfect.. (except in heaven, where the person who helped me the most in my life is now)

I'm still pathetic, peace out...

Natural touch

2009-06-21T16:55:00.002+08:00

Option 1: something happens in your family, and everybody send you their condolences.
Option 2: you keep it a secret, and everybody finds out somehow
Option 3: you don't care whether it's secret or not, but everybody knows anyway

I got all 3 options. Note that the word "everybody" is in all 3. but guess who comes and hug me and sincerely conveyed their condolences? only like 7 people....

Yeah, friends are so awesome sometimes.
(I'm just being pathetic)

Out of the 7, I don't know the 2 other people very well. Kononnya the group of people who is my "rock"and "strength" never said a single word to me, what more a hug. You know, I feel like laughing cause at T's funeral they were hugging and comforting everybody, but when it comes to hugging and comforting me, it's as if I have contagious leprosy disease.

Lepers have hearts too, FYI

I'm sorry but my heart is now closed. Come back in the next millennium.

Wannabe everything

2009-06-10T23:47:00.002+08:00

Ok, I admit I'm a wannabe. I tried to like American Idol, I tried to fall in love with anime characters, I tried to be "one of the boys", it doesn't seem to work out. The latest wannabe I wanna be (poetic! XD) is to be somebody's friend. But it's not working out either. I can proudly announce that my expertise is in succeeding in failing to be a wannabe...

Love,
Wannabe good blogger X)

Life gets you prepared

2009-06-02T22:37:00.002+08:00

I watch the lonely drops trickle
Your face as you rest peacefully
How can someone with life so vital
Suffer now with sickness painfully

The red blood flowing through the tube
Does not make you look better
The measly way you drink your soup
Only makes your skin paler

You were fine the day before
Suddenly you fell so ill
Your body became so sore
You look like you lost your will

I'm a coward for thinking lightly
How you could regain yourself
Never we thought so lightly
The seriousness of your health

I await the Lord's decision
Whether you should go home
Take away your pain, depression
To where heaven will throw a great welcome

To dance with Grandpa again
To share all your life all over
To live without the pain
Is something I'd wished forever

I'm prepared, whatever it takes
Whatever that makes you happy
You hold the greatest stakes
Cause I wanna see you healthy

Love,
your granddaughter,
Lianne

June's everlasting binds

2009-06-02T00:40:00.006+08:00

I've been reading way too many romance novels. And no, I don't read it simply for that part (hah, what are u guys thinkin?), But somehow I like reading how the two characters evolve and grow to love each other. Makes you feel as if love is here (But it's not, that's why it's fictitious X()

So many people like to get married during June (I'm talking about the big ol' USA, mind you). It's summer to them. But so what? July is still summer. Pah, creeps like RPats probably go out in the sun, sweat like goodness-knows-what, and refuses to wash his stinkin' hair (gross!)
David Archuleta is hawtter than that =P (I'll gladly touch his hand)
Jesse McCartney is temptingly single XD (How Do I Sleep? I think of you.....)
So is Taylor Lautner (werewolf rulez!)

This is a really random-topic post. You can tell aite? My life is boring (I have no boyfriend remember? Most of my friends left for their holidays...)

sincerely,
Lalychia
The boring ol' Lianne

Lose the attitude, or lose your dignity X(

2009-05-29T18:48:00.002+08:00

So hawtt!! *sighs and faints in swoon*

Don't get me wrong... I am not emo, But I feel a sense of insecurity with one of my friends. I've known her ever since Form 1, and we maintain a fair relationship. But I can't help to notice why our relationship isn't moving forward. On the contrary, my other friend who only got to know her in Form 3 is so close to her, like bread and butter.... Haiz, believe me when I say I've tried, I've lost count of the trials.

Oh, and may I remind you that she never invited me to join her at any special occasion? Left out...

I try to be myself, my "fun" side as I call it (I can be really lame sometimes), but this doesn't seem to help. (OMG I think its because I resembled her enemy?? I can't bear that thought). I know all of you love me (sounds perasan XD), and I love you guys too. But it feels sad when one person doesn't acknowledge your friendship. It makes me feel...unsuitable.

(I glad I have friends who care so much about me, but what happens when their friend, [whom you treat as nicely as the others] totally ignores you? )

+*+*+*+*+*+

It's the holidays! and I still have to go school (just great). But I don't really mind actually, sounds insane, but I'll remember to study more. O.o Do non-living items (eg School) have an intellectual aura? hah, I'll be doomed.

I don't know when in the world am I getting my new phone. I only want a phone which can sms well. I don't care about its features... My phone is giving me more headaches than convenience. Why? Crap, sometimes I wish I had that watch phone *hint* Hey wait, who am I gonna hint to? nobody will read this haha XD

I'm such an idiot, a rambling, senseless one that is...

This Is How A Heart Breaks

2009-05-28T19:00:00.003+08:00

This is SHITTY I tell you. I can scold all the bad words now but I learnt that scolding vulgar words online could get you to spend a bomb on lawyer's fee, and its ironic...

I mean, WHY???!! Everybody AGREED you dope! and then your, "NO" really brought us down. Just so YOU know, yes I mean YOU know that you have all the authority in the world, and the money as well. YOU and us, we have no difference in a sense that we're trying to earn our own bread as well. Doesn't our independence makes you proud? No, apparently not.

Just because we have to kiss your stupid derriere doesn't mean we're over yet. We still have a lot of projects coming up and YOU are SINCERELY NOT INVITED! I don't understand this, we love our alma mater and you're preventing us from upholding her honour? Mother Mathilde (the 1st school principal) will be rolling in her grave.

This is just plain senseless I tell you, I can't believe we have to actually MATURE and look up to you as a ROLE MODEL. And that's giving you too much credit.

P.S This happens to be one of my most volatile post, so sorry about the rudeness to the readers, but I couldn't hold in my temper. This was directed to someone by the way...

Stop and Stare

2009-05-26T23:38:00.004+08:00

Today I was seriously caught off guard. I didn't think it would happen. Of all days today? God is seriously wicked (and I meant that in a good way) Okay so I prayed a short prayer this morning as I was going downstairs for school. It's funny cause this few days I hadn't been able to pray very much (exams spoil everything, including relationship with God). So I just said a little prayer and it came true! Boom, just like that! Is that awesome or what? By the end of recess I was jumping for joy (in my heart) and I could write my Chinese essay w/o flinching. I hope it turns out okay though...

I think Shi Yea's right. People don't read blogs. So right now I'm just syok sendiri. (Just so you know, since nobody's reading this, I don't think Shi Yea reads mine, though I enjoy reading her posts XD). I was too lazy to sambung cerita in my diary so I resorted to typing here instead. Oh dear, I have to go to school on Friday, that means no going out! (crap) Teacher's giving out Chemistry papers. Why is teacher so hardworking?? WHY??!! But on the bright side, I have one less paper to worry about, hehehe..

Why is it so hard to forget about him? Just today when Raveena mentioned Add maths tuition I thought about him again. What's wrong with me man? No wonder Add Maths failing la, haiyo... He's not cute, so why do I find it hard to forget him? I could forget about my previous, honestly more good-looking crush much easily. But this one sticks in my brain (and heart). Stupid me, I wish I could kill that part of my brain cells, seriously. From now on, I'm on a crush hiatus on normal guys. Celebrity crushes is what I'll depend on for this year, cause knowing that there's somebody out there you can't get a chance with sadistically satisfies me. I won't go and pursue the guy, good eh? Wait, is this a therapeutical thing? It's so sadistic it scares me.

I'm really into David Archuleta now. He is so down-to-earth and wonderful (the big-brother type which I find VERY appealing). He even wore a baju melayu, haha, and he looked drowned in it. XD. Anyway, Dev Patel's sorta tied up with the Freik so I'll put him aside for now =) . Did I mention my mum likes David Archuleta too? (just so you know, it's really hard to please her with guys) heh.

I'm having a strange urge to jump on a trampoline right now..... Wow, I love my randomness! (narcicissm to the max siut)

{insert random title here}

2009-05-21T23:31:00.004+08:00

Keep in mind, you ARE still the person I want to spill my secrets to, to tell my lame jokes, to even have sarcasm thrown at me, even if we never seem to smile at each other... Distance doesn't kill me, but the distance of a relationship will. =|

This one's for all my friends out there. This particular quote, however, was inspired by my close friend who haven't really known me for long, but is being annoyed by me. I just don't know what to say except I'm sorry.

I'm so glad that we only have 3 papers left! I'm off to the library tomorrow, because I have learnt the important (and painful, literally) lesson of not procrastinating on mid-terms. Anyone up to it? haha..

How do those people have such a good time, not study, and get away with it? Sheesh man, I know there are no stupid people, just stupid ways of procrastinating. Hah, should've seen that coming. Is it some sort of a gift? Is there such a thing where you don't study and can get straight A's? Goodness gracious knows...

During this few course of days my mood has improved drastically, but something is bugging me, and if it's not resolved soon? (definitely not exam issues, that's an entirely different matter) It would be too akward for me and i'll have that strange feeling all over again...

I need professional help, PRONTO!
Fakhirah, wait up!

Procrastination kills

2009-05-09T16:22:00.003+08:00

Yes and I am a living specimen. It is the weekend before the exams and here I am, typing away like there's no tomorrow. There won't be a Monday, if I keep doing this XP..
I really liked Shi Yea's new post. It actually gave me an adrenaline rush because I was so worried for her "lost" IC. So thanks, Shi Yea =). I feel mush better now, as opposed to the feelings I had during the previous posts. Manage to talk to my amigas about my problems and now I feel SO MUCH better. hah. Hopefully it will keep up..

There's so many things to do man. I still have to complete the classmag, type those headcommittee reports, finish my add maths conclusions, and certainly not the least, study for my Sunday Catechism classes (my religious class). Can't you believe it? I have to study for that too... And I'm gonna have to sleep early tonight, so that I won't be late tomorrow. Sigh, no midnight oil tonight, or my Catechism class teacher will be breathing down my neck and making me stand outside for coming late like a kindergarten kid. Wonderful.

I wonder sometimes, do I have a personality?? People tell I'm a great listener, good to be with and all. Sorry to say, guys, but I don't really believe you. I've known somebody for 5 yrs now, and no I haven't strayed away from our friendship. In fact, I consider her a close friend (whether or not she treats me in the contrary I wouldn't know). But then I never seen my name in one of those tagged pictures you get on Facebook. It's hurtful to me, well, because that makes me feel like I have no personality. Or maybe I really don't have one.... I don't know :(

I do crap a lot, I admit that, and I seek attention (I hate that side of me), but I force myself to stay quiet. Maybe it's good for everybody?? But somehow I still feel "personalityless". Gosh, I can't cook like a pro or handle a mace expertly or draw cartoons or make up weird catchphrases. So that makes me a nobody? Hmmm, I guess so...

~~I feel like a wannabe, sheesh...

Wana be a sloth but...

2009-05-08T20:23:00.003+08:00

Got so tired of life. I just want to study, study and study, get a scholarship then leave Melaka for med school and not remain in in this place. What can I do to improve the sitch? Man, living a day is hard...

I haven't been sleeping well these days. the average amount of sleep I get for this week is only around 2 hours. As expected I drag my groggy self every morning to school. And today, after my Bible Knowledge class around 5.15pm, I did some Mother's Day shopping and was HORRIFIED at the amount of money I had to spend. I'm so broke now, I can't even pay attention...

...which led on till I got home. I was still shocked at spending so much money, I just sat on my bed in a daze, seriously. Then when I got up to change my clothes, I got annoyed at the sound of crickets in the house, "How the heck did it get in here?!" I walked around, trying to trace the freaking crickets [beautiful or ugly, nature can be annoying sometimes :( ], and shoo those insects out. I realised that the sound was getting nearer, and I was hot on their heels (or feelers XD), and when I stuck my hand into my pocket, I finally realised that the clanking of the 5 sen coins I got as change from McD earlier were the source of the impromtu performance..

I'm going delirious!
Just great...(not)

2009-05-07T17:05:00.003+08:00

And when we get home, I know we won’t be home at all
This place we live, it is not where we belong
And I miss who we were in the town that we could call our own
Going back to get away after everything has changed

Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?
(Everything has changed)
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?
(Everything has changed)
Could you help me push aside all that I have left behind?
(Everything has changed)
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?

So we stand here now and no one knows us at all
I won’t get used to this
I won’t get used to being gone
And going back won’t feel the same if we aren’t staying
Going back to get away after everything has changed

Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?
(Everything has changed)
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?
(Everything has changed)
Could you help me push aside all that I have left behind?
(Everything has changed)
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?

Taking up our time
Taking up our time
Taking up our time
It’s taking up our time again
Go back we can’t go back at all
It’s taking up our time again
Go back we can’t go back at all
It’s taking up our time again
Go back we can’t go back at all
It’s taking up our time, taking up our time

Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?
*from Tabitha's blog... I was thinking about her so much because of all the chaos in my life... And how she used to be to pull me out of it...

"Somewhere out there is a really lonely girl who thinks she is abandoned by everyone. She puts on her "mask" every morning, and at school does her rounds unnoticed, for her "lifelong" friend does not even notice her. She is not a popular person. And deep down, she wonders if people will ever remember her when she dies, if people feel the loss of losing someone so dear, or will her passing be completely meaningless???"

Me? Really?

2009-05-06T00:39:00.005+08:00

Attended school today as usual and found half the class absent (where in the world are you guys? Sheesh!)

Felt miserable at a certain time of the day during school because I was reminded of an advice somebody gave me last Thursday. I guess that's me... XP Some people had such a good life that they are bad at consoling those who had life hit back at them. The problem is, these people happen to be very close to you and after that long period of "depression" (during which they failed to console you), you feel so foreign interacting with them and you sort of forgotten what was it like talking and laughing with them. You find yourself totally lost for words.

I wonder everyday if it is my fault that I made my own life so miserable. It took some time realising that the problem was me I guess, I took myself too seriously (that just sounded like nonsense, because I'm more of a procrastinator, I don't know how I came to be that way)

I wonder all the time what would happen if I left sooner than I thought. As I was doodling away at the expense of somebody's hand today during that ceramah (remember the ceramah? XD). I wonder if the people who makes me world go round would actually would remember me. Imagine, my funeral would only be attended by the priest and the undertaker. I find it easy to imagine though. Forgive me for my emoness but I imagine it happening.

I do have people coming round to tell me how much they appreciate me. But, well, actions speak louder than words. Maybe I'm just really boring. Maybe I'm insignificant. Maybe I'm just as miserable as I think I am, or maybe I did make a little difference. I'm so unconvinced right now...

Would anyone like to admit that I was a significant presence in their life? No, I guessed as much...

Dang, I'm gonna die alone and miserable with 27 cats and only have the priest and undertaker attending my funeral. Allow me to borrow Kelsey's words,

"I'm gonna die a virgin!"
and a grumpy,hateful old b*tch
How delightful

Life life life

2009-05-02T21:33:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder why we are what we are. For example, why does she attract boys and why I don't. Ok ok, that was a pretty lame example, but you get my point right? (For those who think they had never attracted boys, join the club XD)
By the way, this is not a discriminating post about gals who are taken, single or two-timing, haha... I mean to say some of the guys practically flock to the gals, but for some, they're just "the best friend". I've heard stories form both sides (from the singles and the taken and the two-timing), and you won't believe the stories I get from these people.
First of all, from the singles--They think they're not attractive when they actually are. And contrary to myths, these girls actually make very nice partners (if they like you back, that is =P) They are the ones who would be very sensitive to needs cause usually they are very sincere in their relationships. They really value the time they spend with their man because they know that it's not easy to some across love. They like to shy away because of lack of experience. These category of girls usually have a sunny and cheery personality (like I said, they give relationships their all).
What they say---> "I'm not pretty enough for guys" , "I'm shy, I don't want to talk to him", "Maybe I'm just not confident enough", "What if he doesn't like me back?", "He showing any signs, I don't want to carry on", "Forget it, he doesn't deserve me" etc.
>>THE TAKEN....
They are good to hang out with cause they always know exactly what you want. They are experienced in this field. They know how to have a good time on dates. Best of all, they are really sociable and are comfortable meeting new people. They're the ones who will score when you bring this kind of girl out to meet your guy friends. They are fun, outgoing and they know what to do when something happens in a relationship (if they'd faced the same problem before). They feel deeply for others because they'd most probably experienced heartbreak in relationships.
And they say-->"Hello, nice to meet you...", "Hey let's try this", "What are you afraid of?", "It doesn't hurt if it doesn't kill,", "Hey, it's not worth your tears" etc.
}Two Timers{
Oh dear, these are the ones who falls too much for guys, and love to SS (Syok Sendiri). However, this category does not necessarily mean negativity. I fall in this category, as I can be in love with 2 or more celebrities at one time (lolz). They (or rather people like me) like guys with good looks. They also fall for guys with amazing personalities. They seem to fantasise about the good looking guys most of the time and change their preference (of guys) from time to time. But they are a lot of fun to be with cause they are very open about things. They like new ideas and accept differences. (That's why some of us and stay hooked to a celebrity for a significant amount of time)
They love to say-->"Wow, that guy's hot!", "Wonder who is he dating?", "Hey, he's for me only", "Please, if can multitask, surely I can handle more than two guys.." etc.

Hmm, makes enough sense??

*all contents of this post may or may not be officially factual XP

Chuck everything and relax

2009-05-01T15:46:00.001+08:00

I don't know whether anyone realised but the world seems to be gloomy nowadays.. (I think you know what I mean..) It's just that there's the swine flu and mid-term and vicious assaults and negativity.

Maybe we're just putting too much pressure on ourselves. Sure, the world may be advance but humans seem more primitive now. They actually catfight on who wins a certain competition, lash out at each other on the internet. Just plain dumb. and we call them "humans". The fact is, being the smarter creature on earth won't make much of a difference if we don't put our differences aside. Why do you think smokers smoke? Don't you think they know the dangers? Of course they do, they just use the "habitual" excuse to get away with it. Is DUI bad. Yea, but do you think it's gonna stop people from drunk driving. Never.

What's happening? The world is supposed to be more advanced. Not just technologically or scientifically, but attitude-wise and spiritually. Why else do you think we're on this earth for? Our life purpose is to curse non-stop? To groan at everything? If you think that's all there is to life I think you should really see a psychiatrist :P

If little kids can settle disputes, why can't grown-ups do the same thing? Life is pretty simple really, its just maturity making us think otherwise.

I'd wish I'd had lived in the primitive times. Life would be so much simpler without schools or teenage crisis.